Guess what ? I think i really had to give up on you? I really don’t know why? Isit because I didn’t try hard enough ? No matter how much I change? Just for one chance .. Is it really so hard ? Always thinking , can i text you? Will you reply … will you find me irritating ? Have you fall in love with someone else already ? All those thoughs never fail to come out from my mindset. Falling for someone is really really very hard for me , but why ? Why I choose to love someone who already don’t had any feeling for me? Why I deserve such punishment ? No matter what I do ? You just ignore me , yahs as you had said , you have already changed to someone else ? When im stress , I think of you .. all the stress will be gone . When im crying .. I just hope you were beside me , to hug me .. cheer me up .. tell me not to cry . But all this wont be back to me anymore correct . Loving someone is really that special . You know what? I really cant let go and now I had to force myself to let go , and accept others that I don’t love . Tragic isnt it? I just hope I can end my life or just be a nun , or be in a coma situration so that I don’t had to worry so much . Why , can someone just kill me? Family , then come relationship . If you really love me , don’t leave me , cause im not use to be alone without you . I’m really really not use to it . Please come back to me , I’ll be everything you need . Let fate decide what happen next . I know you miss last time marilyn . Now I miss her too . If I were her , you will love me back correct . But I guess I wont be her anymore . That marilyn is already DEAD! Same as YOU , the past you is already DEAD TOO . Let just die together alright . I hope I can go in and join my sister , so that when you’re in army , I wont miss you , even if I miss you I cant do anything , cause im inside too . Or just DIE! I swear to GOD , I really love you , really want to know how you feel , really want to share your stress with you . Wipe your tears when you’re sad . Hug you tight when you’re cold . Be the first and last person that were by your side . CAN I ?

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