Came back straight after work...felt so lonely and bored...well habenn eaten dinner!!...going to eat later on....nothing to do so bored..so after bathe...went straight to dad hse use laptop..play dota...(SIAN) wondering wads she doing with her frends...now is 8.21pm din even received a msg from her...i can't feel her love towards mi anymore...its like is drifting away from mi...if she loved mi...wad will she do?? is there anything that we shared common interested?.

I really don't know....well i told myself not to angry...for wad angry...she already mit them up...wanna go eat....let her be lor...if she thinks that is the rite way...let her do ba...i dun wish to angry and kp so much..i am realli tired...wad should i do whenever she's not wit mi??? there's things that she dun like it when i'm doing it...and for mi oso....

Does compromised helps??
Is tolerating consider give in??
Wad should i do??
I felt that i love her deeply just that i din show out in action...
I was afraid that one day she lefted mi and i will be in deep shit
Well i just let it natural take course...

I believed her
I Love her
I Trust her
I Don't quarrel wit her over small things

I Sincerely and hopefully that she's won't betray & lie to me.
Whenever i ask her where is she...
I got so nervous ytd night...when she told mi that she was tired and wanna slp more...end up her mother called mi saying that she's not at home..the 1st thing i my mind was...(She told mi she is sleeping coz she is tired)

Then i tried to call her and sms her...Unreachable...2nd thing in my mind! is she with her friends...then dun wanna let mi know where is she??? or is her hp in slient mode ??

After awhile i finally reached her...she told mi that she went for dinner...and the hp was in slient mode...she explained herself...i felt that i can't scold her for that oso...becoz the msg din deliver to mi....i was afraid of many things...maybe it is becoz....i'm afraid of losing her...

I do love u my laopo
I'm worried that the day u walk away...
*I wanted to tell u i realli love u lot*
from the bottom of my heart

Today was a tiring day~ BHP billiton water flood underneath the raisefloor, and we and the workers gonna clear it! and do protection for it..as for the carpenter gonna drill a hole by hole according to pipes..

As time reached around 9+.. finally halfway done! gonna continue tml...so i went back amk by taking cab...

Sad to say...i dun hab enff cash! so i hab to stop at AVE 10 to draw $$...
So shock to see jiawen with them....which i remember she sms mi that she was tired! i was so flared up!!! did't talk much just went off to atm machinese


wei kang walk up to mi...asked mi wads going on...so i told him wads wrong...and i refer him to return the ring to jiawen...

i felt that in this relationship...does't mean anything to mi, after all the qurral thingy happen...i hate to do it but i am totally fed up

i decided not to talk abt this today! as i am tired & got to take a view of wads going on tml! =.=" i am having stress!!! how long more can i take it???

My stead is going out and hanging wit frends which i did't being informed!!!
awww is bery sad to say that...i duno whether is she really my stead....

i am now penniless guy already...
its is not even the end of month! yet i duno wdf i spend on...haisss
i wanna save up the $500 !!
i wanna save money for laptop
but how i gonna do it =.="!

is hard to predict wads gonna happen tml!
i am having a headached!!
who will understand wat i realli wan & need??
is there someone who really understand mi well? and get along well wit mi???

Hoping for the day i can be independent!



I'm physical * metally tired =(
I'm so useless & broke

* Samsung Galaxy S3 *
* Mazda RX-8 SE3P *